You never know when is the last good bye

It was the first day of my school. I saw him for the first time . And the instant I saw him I decided ” I so hate him “. I don’t know if this was intuitive or prejudistic , but I knew that I would not be able to tolerate him . He was someone I hated with all my heart , with all my soul. He was my arch rival , my enemy. I don’t know why I despised him so much. In fact, I hated most of the men during those days. At some corner of my heart , there was a feeling that all men are heartless creatures.

But the point was that I had to bear him for the rest of 3 my school life. The only impression I had about him was that he was a Casanova.He was someone who irritated me for the rest of three years of my life. Who knew this person would be someone who I’d remember for the rest of my life.

Years rolled by.Finally came the day where I had to clear the board exams and came the day where I would be leaving the school and join a junior college. To be frank enough I was really happy. There was a kind of desperate need in me to get out of the school as soon as possible.

But things changed drastically as soon as I left my college. I became friends with him. I started to know him better. And I was filled with regrets for having hated him earlier. I realized not all the men are heartless. There are some men who could be your friends as well. I was happy. Life was perfect. We started hanging out together. Lots of laughter, giggles and coffees . And like all good things even this had to come to an end.

I decided to take up management studies in my undergraduate level. It was there I met Ananya for the first time. We became the best of buddies since the first day. After a week I introduced Ananya to Dhruv. I observed Dhruv was completely smitten by her. She was pretty . I could make out that he was checking her out. I don’t know why I never fell in love with him. I never felt any such feelings for him . But I just thought that these could make a wonderful couple.

Anyways after that day , I could observe that Dhruv had become more than busy. Everytime I called him , he was held up with one work or the other. Then came a day, which changed everything . I could make out that he was avoiding me for Ananya , this hurt me more than anything and everything. He started keeping secrets from me. He started avoiding me. Things changed badly. I was never so helpless before. One day while I was with Ananya , we were discussing about him , when I saw the need to call him and clear all the differences. But as soon as he picked up the call all I could hear was “Hey ,I’m sorry .There’s a fest at college and since I’m the co-ordinator I’m little held up. I’ll catch up later .Bye.” He didn’t even allow me to speak. Just after a minute of this, he calls Ananya,and there he is talking to her for more than an hour. I was so stunned. How could he do this to me.

This was it. I decided I’m never going to talk to him ever again in my life. After 3 days of this incident , Ananya calls me up “Hey babe , Guess what?? I’m in relationship with Dhruv. I feel so lucky.” 

I never felt so stabbed in my life ever. Two of my best friends had stabbed me on my back. All I could do, was just cry my heart out. Cry,Cry and Cry!!!

I knew I had to take both of them off my life. I stopped speaking both to Dhruv and Ananya. I started avoiding Ananya badly. I made new friends, started hanging out with them more often.

Ananya started whatsapping me ” Not talking to me ?”

“What’s wrong”

“What’s happening?Atleast tell me my fault? Why are behaving like this.This is totally childish.Don’t you think you should be more clear with what’s wrong?”

Finally one day she encountered me at the canteen.”What’s the problem? Why on earth are you not talking to me? I now see what it is. Since the day , I told you I’m in relationship with him, you stopped talking to me. Isn’t it ? He warned me not to tell you anything. You’re so jealous. You’re so possessive. You couldn’t bear to see me with him. That’s why you’re moving away right? Wow!! So clever, Bitch!!.All your life, you did nothing but used him for your selfish purposes. He should have left you long back.You could never ever be happy for your friends. You’re such a sulking bitch.”

I was stunned to listen to these words, my best friend thought about me.”I was a sulking bitch, like really?”

I could not control “Oh! really .I’m a sulking bitch, then why don’t you get the hell out of my sight. I don’t even wanna see your face ever again in my life again. You get it ? You better get it. I so hate you, Ananya. You know why? You’re the reason why I and Dhruv are no longer friends.You spoiled everything between us. And you’re saying I used him . Get the hell out of my life.”

After this incident I completely cut her off my life. She tried to apologise. She was sorry for whatever she said that day. But how could I ever forgive her. I had never learnt forgiving anybody.Two years after this episode, Dhruv came to my college , but this time not to meet Ananya, but to meet me. I was in parking lot, taking out my vehicle , when “Hi , Akriti .How are you.??”

I turned back to see Dhruv, standing behind me ” Ananya is in the canteen. You can go and meet her.”

Dhruv was hurt by my words for sure “What’s wrong Akriti? I came to meet you.You’re my best friend. I cannot afford to lose you. You mean the most to me . I know , you’re hurt by some of my actions. Ananya feels so bad without you. She misses you so much. Talk to her once. Sort out things with her please. I cannot see her crying like this. I love her , damn it for God’s sake. She means my world to me and I cannot afford my world to be sad.”

I couldn’t believe my ears. He was here for her and not for me” All you care about is her and not me ? How could you be so selfish? You know me from the past 8 years and she from past 1 year. Does she matter to you so much , that you are ready to forsake your friendship with me. Just go away. Let me be .Go away.”

This was the last time I ever spoke to both of them. I moved out of the country for my further studies. London was a better city , a better place by all means. But I could never forget them. For still I missed both of them so much. 

Years rolled by . I got married. Life was happy, until Siddhart told me ” You see their photos everyday. Go to India , meet them.Talk to them Akriti. ” I understood I had to forget the past. 

I knew that both of them had gotten married and lived in Pune now. I packed my bags , booked my ticket to Pune. I thought it will be a good time. We’ll forget everything. I’m going to set everything right. But not really. As soon as I went to their place, all that greeted me was silence. After waiting for about 10 minutes, an old lady dressed in a white chudidar opened the door. 

“Hi, I’m Akriti. I’m Dhruv and Ananya’s friend. I’ve come from London.” The lady burst into tears, “Come inside”

After having a cup of coffee, I asked” Where’s Ananya?? Office”

I could sense something is wrong “I’m Dhruv’s mother. Ananya and Dhruv got married 5 years ago. 2 years ago, the same day when they were travelling from Delhi to Pune , their plane got crashedImage.”

I couldn’t believe my ears. Like dead ? Seriously? How could this happen? They were so young still. They had an entire life to live.Why is life so uncertain? I had lost the two most important people in my life. All these years all I wanted was to talk to them. Make everything alright.But my ego was too strong to let something like this happen.

“All I have now is the memories. I just wish I was not so rude to them.All I wanted to tell that, I still cared about them. I still loved them.”

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